20060810

aftertheworst

so anyways, havent been doing too hot lately. well, tht can happen when the most constant thing in ur life's gone. everything's less here without you, you know, days pass by slowerr, every sad song becomes a damn tear-jerker and nothings the same, really. and nothing/noone can help the way i feel. i hate airports. i really hate goodbyes

thanks bridge for understanding and for whatcha said on ur blog, it really made me smile. quote unquote,

i wish that there was something i could do to make my sister feel a kezillion times better. at this point if i could have anything in this world, it would be just that..

but we have to move on somehow. and after awhile, it'll all be alright again. time heals all wounds, its true, but some wounds need a longer time to recover, and during that healing period, its up to us whether we wanna stall or move on, because, its just life. it trips us sometimes, and we shouldnt let it burn our plans for the future ahead.

it helps to know tht there are plenty of people who care. sorry for being a party pooper on ur birthday yesterday tho, im glad ya had wonderful friends to make ur 17th a great onee. because national day, to me, din feel like anything at all, just another day in the calendar of long days to come.

but i guess its true, things will get better and theres definitely technology to help(i promise ill get my webcam soon!). the small things and people who help me get through the day, im truly grateful for. yet, its slowly sinking in that i wont be seeing him anytime soon, but ill just have to learn to look at the glass being half full huh. and its not like i wont get to talk to him at all, there are prepaid cards and the www and what not. its just distance and time, no biggie right? riiiight.

its the worst feeling in the whole damn world, but things are looking up and ill learn how to deal. itll be alright.

ps. sorry for the emo post. but its my blog and ill cry if i want to
ppss. thanks, you guys for making things better. vonee, bridge, sam for just being there, dareel for the lameness, the guys (kel carl jia klim) for the nice time out!
pppsss. you'll be alright too babby! ill tty real soon, i missed you loads today!

à moi vous êtes parfait; 11:50